*HideousMonologue
"The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness"
Thank you mak. I am so sorry. Truly deeply sorry.
Time will rectify all those things. Ya Allah. Please make ease. I am just your mere servants that seeking for your help. Amin ya rabbalalamin.
Showing posts with label Mistakes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mistakes. Show all posts
Tuesday, 3 March 2015
Sunday, 1 March 2015
#151
*HideousMonologue*
First thing first. I miss mak. Yes I miss her so much. But I know how much she was frustrated and mad at me right now.. I kept blaming myself for what was happened. Deepest sorry from me to all of you.
It has been finalized. And I dont know how to explain to ayah n ibu. What should I do next? It is very disturbing me. Can I just disappear just like that? Or even going to someplace where nobody knows me and I can just live alone by myself. Or even worst, I want to completely vanish from this life. Lately, I have figure that I tend to run from my own problems. I hate to think what is the solutions for all of that. I hate to think what is the consequences that will occur. Yes, I am so coward to deal with it. I dont know how to handle them. I can try to solve others. But for mine? Sigh.. What is wrong with me? Even I dont have the right answer. I have nobody to share my probs anymore. Is it because of I dont have real friends? Or is it me who just dont wanna hear something that doesnt fit to my hearing.
I am so sorry if the expectation is sucks. And as what I said, it kept playing in my mind. Hell yeah it is not what we're think of.
All in all, I do miss u and u kept appeared in my dreams. It made me so miserable when it ends up with some tears after woke up.
°Mistakes are made and my heart is sore. Our distance are grew and grew some more°
First thing first. I miss mak. Yes I miss her so much. But I know how much she was frustrated and mad at me right now.. I kept blaming myself for what was happened. Deepest sorry from me to all of you.
It has been finalized. And I dont know how to explain to ayah n ibu. What should I do next? It is very disturbing me. Can I just disappear just like that? Or even going to someplace where nobody knows me and I can just live alone by myself. Or even worst, I want to completely vanish from this life. Lately, I have figure that I tend to run from my own problems. I hate to think what is the solutions for all of that. I hate to think what is the consequences that will occur. Yes, I am so coward to deal with it. I dont know how to handle them. I can try to solve others. But for mine? Sigh.. What is wrong with me? Even I dont have the right answer. I have nobody to share my probs anymore. Is it because of I dont have real friends? Or is it me who just dont wanna hear something that doesnt fit to my hearing.
I am so sorry if the expectation is sucks. And as what I said, it kept playing in my mind. Hell yeah it is not what we're think of.
All in all, I do miss u and u kept appeared in my dreams. It made me so miserable when it ends up with some tears after woke up.
°Mistakes are made and my heart is sore. Our distance are grew and grew some more°
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