#164

*HideousMonologue*


Have a deep thinking
what should I do next?
Hoping?
Waiting?

But wait...

Hoping? Hoping for what?
Waiting? Is there even worth to be waiting on something that... Well, something that not even clear.

And so, I walked away.

Giving some spaces,
Giving some time,
Give it a rest.

It is the time.

Just go, I will let you go and never hold you back again.

#111

*HideousMonologue*

I'm just wondering. 

Does everyone felt the same way I felt?
The suffocate environment that nearly choked me to death.
Does you?"

Damn melodrama much! Stop it atteya. Hidup ni x selalu seronok and indah. So dont expect more than what you deserve in your life.

Ouh pnatnye hidup mcm ni. Awww snap! Erlow, kau baru keje x smpai sthun. So xyah nk over mcm da 5 thun kau membanting tulang, memerah keringat. *pesan kat diri sendiri ni. Nk trase? Dipersilakan*

X keje, acane nk bagi ayahanda bonda terchenta? Bayar nafsu makan kau yg besar tu? Nafsu baby p kau yg besar temboloknye tu. Nafsu baju kau, nafsu kasut ko, nafsu gadget ko and nafsu beg kau tu? *well, perempuan ade 9 nafsu k. Dont blame us tho! 

Ade x soulbrother kat luar sane nk adopt i jadik bini and bayar gaji i bulan2 mcm skang?? Nk bayar up lg pon dipersilakan Haha *berangan much* yg pentikng awk x isap rokok ye soulbrother *xnk la u mati cpat. Nnt i jadi janda plak. Nauzubillahiminzalik*

Solat pon ckup. *boleh le rotan i yg kekdang liat bangun subuh ni* 

Terima la i yg gumuks dan x cantik ni *well, beauties dont last forever. Lame2 kua gak wrinkles kn..up diri sgt* 

Dpt terima la my family yg mcm haywire and havoc ni.. *we're the hyperact.....ive family* hahah

Thats all i'm asking. *Thats all??? Punye banyk u request u ckp thats all? Punkoq ang la bak kata ibu.." 

Haha. So this is what i want to carot2 today. I was wondering. Kn best lau i can carut in my writing just like i did just now.. sigh..sigh..

Well, thats all dor tonight. Just need my beauty sleep for tonight. Buenos noches my soulbrother cum my soulmate no matter where you are right now~ ♡ u.  Haha